I tend to procrastinatate writing stuff so today I am sort of forcing my self to write this one. Please bare in mind that I am not interested to save the world or become well known. I originally made my website to share my videos and songs but that would have not being an interesting enough content to uphold a website which does cost money as well which is why I started to add more value to my page which is the stuff I have been writing so far. What I am writing Is just an after effect that is part of our collective evolution. Like a ripple effect, the evolution of humanity caught my attention and thus I decided to go along in case I will miss out something important which indeed it is. Majority of humanity have not noticed that we are living a time of change known as Aquarius so majority are missing out unfortunately and are ruining their lives. This problem is not just a linear issue its actually a multidimensional problem. Every dimension of time is packed with people majority still caught up in linear time which is in fact the past. The world was over long ago believe it or not and you are the only one in the room within you personal hologram of life and death that has been already over! Just like a movie. A movie may appear linear starting from beginning to the end but it has still been already filmed in the can before it even got projected to the screen to be experienced. And so is your life… You are already dead and looking at a world that is past but you are too fearful to let it go. I wont go too deep with this. Just saying that if you are reading this right now and find it resonating then indeed by all means continue reading. I do want to add that writing this stuff, although not new, is indeed my new passion and I love to spread the word forward. I am not a guru, spiritual teacher or any of that kind. I am an awakening esoteric ego. I have tarnished my image many times in the past years and even made a gritty exclusive documentary that was all about tarnishing my image as a goal getter business man who failed but learned beyond measure. You can watch it here. So if you think I am some kind of a cult leader, hah, think again. You will be wasting your time and ruining your life. “Let the dead bury the dead” is a quote from Jesus which means let the spiritually dead bury the dead. This page is about life. Yes, the road can be tough but life always wins. Humans will for life is too strong although the majority of humans have a high tolerance for misery and pain because our culture has been set to numb mental, physical and emotional pains so we are not aware that we have a soul that has been tortured that yearns to spread its wings and fly.
So am I pushing your buttons? Have my writings upset you? Are you bothered by the fact that earth, humanity is actually an illusion or a holographic dream or as some might call a simulation of a false life? Are you pissed that your career, loved ones, family and friends are all made up? Are you upset to hear that you are actually outside time and space in heaven/ infinity dreaming of a limited existence in a limited universe? That you are already dead just like the rest of humanity are already dead. Everybody is like in the movie The 6th sense… Humanity is literally like a ghost, they all think they are alive but the world was over long ago. Are you troubled by the idea that your are the one who has to take charge of your thinking because God has no clue about your dreams just like a parent does not know what a sleeping child is seeing in his or her dream. The only thing the parent knows based on the childs troubled sleeping face is that the child is having a nightmare thus the parent tries to wake up the child with gentle ease by whispering loving thoughts to the child.
“Nothing to worry. You are safe at home. All you are seeing is just a nightmare and they have no effect”
Regarding the parent – child metaphor, please remember this is all a metaphor because we are not really bodies in heaven. God is not a person and nor are you. So back to the story. Like the parent whispering to the child to wake up and reminding the child that what he/she is seeing is just a dream God is basically whispering to the one mind dreaming of a universe with multiple bodies (extraterrestials included) that its dreaming. Since the one mind (which is ultimately you) is so identified with the symbols of the dream The mind interprets the whisper of god to wake up in the form of symbols such as the manifestation of moses, Jesus, krishna and none animated bodies like esoteric books such as the course in miracles, buddhism or any article that is trying to motivate the reader to wake up.
However when people are presented with the truth. That it is beneficial for you to wake up rather than staying stuck in a cycle of birth and death (physical reality which is a dream) majority like to hit the snooze button and continue their lives as if they never heard what any great master like Jesus or a authentic book or article was trying to say… And here is why… The 6 reasons you should forget about waking up from the illusion of birth and death and live your day to day life as if you never red this article.
1:If you answer the call to listen to the “Gods whisper” that is calling you to wake up (Gods whisper that took the form of Jesus, Buddha, esoteric books, esotric videos, esoteric music and articles) then you must be ready to allow your world to end and by that I mean that most of the western people are living a very unconscious lives and have made choices so that they can remain and deepen their state of unconsciousness or sleep. This usually includes poor choices regarding work, friends, spouse, family members, hobbies, diet and the way you think/ believe. Our thinking/ beliefs are not easy to purify which is why the old world that held your belief/ thinking system together tends to fall apart if you get serious about awakening from a thousand year lasting false existence. There are not many retreat centers in the world where people who have lost all and now have to start from zero can go to which is why Trust is such an important aspect of Awakening while finding refuge where you can rest and allow your biological self to adjust to this profound realization of not being a body. The world is not Awakening friendly because it is designed to keep us asleep and will continue to do that for quite a while. The reason trust is so important is because you are not separated from God, you are just dreaming of separation. The divine intelligence that fights against the chaos we created is also within the dream which is why your usual way of thinking must go away so that it can guide you. Without the divine intelligence infused with our miss creation of a false dream like universe there would be no order in this universe and one example out of many I can come up with is that our sun would not be in the exact place in the galaxy to shine its radiance from a perfect distance so that it wont burn our planet. This same intelligence that knows how things can be “safer” also knows how to guide you properly in a crazy planet.
2: If you are not ready to tarnish you image then you might as well stop it there. You can not care what other people think of you once you answer the call. When you loose your old life (which may include losing your house, spouse, job etc) you will be tempted to think how others perceive you. A lot of angry people tend to use the word “sheep” to define a person that is bound to a herd mentality. This page is not about being angry to people, quite the opposite, but it is true that humanity has a deep seated belief system (I call virus) and that is the belief in objective reality that needs to be taken seriously in order to survive. Once you start to become more subjective you will experience cognitive dissonance with the rest of the world who are still caught in an objective world and your very being will get misunderstood. You will not resonate with many people and it will take trials and errors and the ability to be vulnerable (average joes hates vulnerability) to find the ones that are suitable for your new subjective awareness. Objective reality has thought us to be goal getters and ambitious, serious individuals who must find this priceless pearl outside of us (to many people this priceless pearl is finding the ways to have sex). We have surpressed our nurturing feminine side which includes self nurturing and resting so that we can be effective in our natural talents and nurturing around others. This feminine energy is coming back now. The rising of female movements (such as the Me 2 movement) is just an expression of that even though they may not know it.
3: Awakening from the dream is really like consciously dying while still appearing in the body. Your usual way of human interaction will radically change and many foods will not fit your new awareness due to its harm to the body. Although the body is a deformity of thought it is still a divine creation and it has its own intelligence such as pain. When you feel any pain all that is happening is that your bodies intelligence is telling you to stop whatever it is you have been doing to it such as too much alcohol, unhealthy food, negativity or stress etc. To die consciously would also mean to accept to let go of any desire to be famous, rich, good looking etc. You must surrender your life to this divine intelligence that will guide your life towards a path that will bring you more and more within to the subjective reality. It is a very paradoxical journey. For example many things we thought to be our advancements or achievements have actually being damaging regarding our spiritual evolution while our trials and errors and the ability to move on have been our truest contribution to the healing of this one mind that is dreaming the entire universe, animals and all humanoids. We are all one. Its not unusual for long sentenced prisoners to be more happier than an average joe who is “free” because the prisoner has less distractions and no goals or desires around him. The prisoner thus ends up finding interest in the inner subjective realms and even has the time to digest all the physical changes due to very simple prison life. Nelson Mandela is a good example and so is Gandhi.
4: Eventually you will have to learn to surrender to the entire process even at times when nothing makes sense. As we advance in our subjective journey some have had the excitement to become teachers, healers, guides but this does not guarantee fortune and fame at all. The real question is are you ready to do Gods will even if nobody would know anything about you and you would not be rewarded materialistically at all? The ones that do receive material gains like Osho who had close to hundred rolls royces are ultimately there to learn that none of that brings them the happiness they were looking for. Perhaps your soul does not need to go that lesson especially if you are born within rich systems such as Norway or Finland. 😀
5: There is nothing wrong with religion yet it has taken peoples power away from them and has made many religious followers dependent on a force outside of themselves to save them. Many actually believe that there will be a second coming of Christ not understanding that the second coming is actually the time we are living right now which is the age of Aquarius where humanity is reclaiming their Christ within themselves. We are all Christ because we are all the one Son of God that is dreaming of a separated universe. Christ is simply a higher state of consciousness where you are more aware/ conscious of being a lucid dreamer outside time and space just like Jesus was aware of being a lucid dreamer. Jesus became one with Christ consciousness. Many have done so before and after Jesus so there is nothing special about him. If you are not ready to take responsibility of your life and rather prefer to project all your issues on a god outside of you to solve your issues then this path I have been talking about may not be for you because in this path you are taking full responsibility of your thinking and the actions that follow from your thinking. I also want to add that Atheism demands independence from a higher force/ God but this is not so. We are all one and interconnected. Independence or separation is just an illusion which is the world we appear to live in. The people that claim to be atheist have usually being very miserable people usually dependent on substances or relationships to ease their own created sense of abandonment from God (I prefer calling Oneness) and are sabotaging their lives by being over obsessive to prove religious people including esoteric teachings as bullshit. What a sad life and a waste of time…
6: Since Awakening is like dying from an old life and being rebirth to a new one while still appearing to be here. You may have to go trough phases of losing the zeal and passion in the stuff that you used to love. You must face the emotional side of death which is not only about losing your body but the entire human experience. You will loose more desires as you move forward… Even the desire to hold a role of a son, mother or whatever role you used to so identify with must fade away. This all does indeed sound harsh to anybody who still sees value in the 3 dimensional world but as you progress trough these experiences you will feel compassionate towards humanity and will function without any conditions set on others. Sure, you will still use common sense. You will not spend and waste your time listening to a drunk person, you know, or waste time with toxic family members who are still trying to control you, you know, or hang around with friends who have no respect for you. You will notice that many times it will be more beneficial for everybody for you to just leave the relationship so that others will one day get motivated to take charge of their own lives and make a change within themselves. You get what I am saying! Tired of writing. Bye.
Once you have gone trough the dark night of the soul (which can last from months to years) there is no turning back. So much has shifted within you. You have mentally, physically and some of you quite literally seeing glimpses of hell in the astral realms (the realm of nocturnal dreams or out of body experiences) and you have come back out of it stronger than ever. It will be harder to piss you of because you have seeing the inner realms of heaven and hell even the best UFC fighter does not have the courage to enter yet. One major quality within you by this time is that you re-become highly sensitive to your surroundings and you can now honor this sensitivity and use it well to navigate trough life. In other words you have become an empath or psychic. Once you come out of the metaphorical cocoon and re-enter society, your acquired wisdom and the lack of addiction to ego consciousness gets automatically contrasted with the deep misery, search for validation and meaning the majority of others around you are going trough from all ages and races. Majority of them so distracted by the world that they are not aware that they are miserable by searching for happiness outside of themselves. You will see the cosmic drama being acted out right in front of you… And boy that can be quite funny actually!
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A word of warning which is that if you are not meant to wake up in this lifetime then what I have written so far will make no sense to you and will sound crazy. It gets more intense as we progress the ladder up as you will see as you read this. I am sorry to break your sense of reality. Bare in mind tough that this is becoming more common. There are 7 billion people on earth now so of course there must be more people waking up compared to 2000 years ago at the time of Jesus when there was perhaps only 2 million people on earth thus only 1-20 people waking up. One of them historically known as Jesus.
Before I go on with the topic of re-entering the societal matrix I would like to write a summary of the basic phases of awakening from the dream of separation (the dream of leaving God/Oneness and to dream to be born in to a physical false dream like universe to survive as a body and eventually die as a body)
1. Initiation: Everybody starts from this phase and majority of humanity have been stuck here for a long time. This phase is simply to be born into this world. Once you are born you get conditioned by your care takers and later on by your friends, school system, media and society. Unless you were born to an Enlightened being, which is rare, the conditioning you received while growing up were all objective. They all believed in a mysterious external world outside of themselves and something that should be taken seriously for the sake of survival. Once you take things seriously for many years you become addicted to that state and know no other way to navigate trough life. Once you reach adulthood and you notice that you are not happy, that you are still serious or unhappy, you are motivated to question everything you have been thought. Many people however suppress their real feelings regarding their unhappiness by distracting themselves trough relationships, abuse of sex, abuse of substances, beach vocations, overworking and overeating to a point the feeling of misery gets denied and hidden in the unconsciouss. When this happens the next step your soul will try to do to warn you is trough bodily sickness to motivate you to question what you pass as life but even this will not work in many cases because we will find satisfaction in blaming other people regarding the lot in our lives and the unconscious self hatred of not having the care to do anything about it but blame. The old grumpy man is a good example. Hitler found immense pervasive satisfaction in blaming others of his misery and even killed many to gain some sense of power. Many people at this point of initiation will find interest in conspiracy theories and although the basics are true, that a group of insane powerful individuals are not for the highest good of all and are plotting for a one world government to keep people more in bondage, the people who are miserable will then get stuck in blaming the insane elites yet not seeing the full picture of it which is that the miserable people are actually dreaming the elites up and the elites are just serving their wish to remain in literal and eternal sleep. They are also innocent.
2. Undoing or Letting go: If you are lucky and you listen to your unhappiness or the sickness, you will start to rebel against everything you have been thought. You will attract esoteric books, few friends who are also awakening and the right videos and you will notice the importance of letting go of the false self: your old life which was working as an distraction. Dropping your old life will be a process because we fear the unknown after all of the old is gone. Many people will not go trough this phase and will jump back to their old lives and/ or comfort zones because they fear peer pressure that will inevitably happen with relationships. So many do not want you to be free and very few from your old life will allow you to go trough this radical process of letting go. The people from your old life will channel words and act out unconsciouss behaviors that will try to root you back in to the comfort zone you were part of for so long. Awakening is a road without distance so you really are not going anywhere but the change occurs at the level of the mind and once you have raised your awareness your life will picture this awareness accordingly which means your external world (the effect) will change based on the change in your thinking (the cause or projector). This is perhaps the most intense process of waking up and can also last for some time. If you live with a spouse, with family, it has been quite typical for them to suggest you should visit a psychiatrist and if you do that (some will be forced to do it) the psychiatrist, unless he/she is aware of jungian or any esoteric psychology, will usually diagnose your behavior as mental illness and you may have to go trough medication. Since you are the dreamer of your life and the people who seem to be outside of you are actually you, you will eventually have to forgive these people who hurt you by trying to drag you down to the old ways. Without forgiving them you will not be able to forgive yourself and release yourself from the experience of linear time: the sins of the past, the absence of present peace due to the fearful expectations of the unforgiving future.. All this will be gone only trough forgiveness in a quantum sense. Forgiveness is the key to be released from time. None of us came here pure and waking up from the insane dream of birth and death, time and space, will make you more aware of this. We are all doing our best with our current state of awareness. I also want to add that although the psychiatrist have no clue what is happening within you (psychology is still in its infancy), they are there to keep you more grounded without knowing that is what they are for. Going to a mental health professional will also be a good justification for others to allow you to take it easy and rest to digest all that is happening with you rather than pushing you to get a job or a career. Use this time wisely. Rest whenever you feel like doing so. Rest for 16 hours a day? Yes!
When you start to let go of your old life you will notice some ascension symptoms arising both at the physical and mental level. There are many ascension symptom lists on the internet so google search them and use discernment. Very common ones are sleep issues, digestive issues, tinnitus, need to change diet, mood swings, lack or increase in libido, change in brain, skull and bone structure etc. Once you are changing your thinking your biological self shifts accordingly as well to a more light based body and by that I mean that your psychological and physical self are getting trained being a dreamer outside time and space while still maintaining a body in a dense dream thus why all these radical biological shifts in the body (brain, organs etc) and the intense need to rest a lot. When things balance out (which can take time) the body will feel more lighter, healthier and elastic like a figure in a dream which it really is. When Jesus was crucified he was completely outside of his body and did not feel any pain when the nails went trough his body. The bible gave a different interpretation based on a suffering Jesus unfortunately because bible (influenced by power hungry extraterrestials and elitist) is trying to concrete the sleeping mind and make pain, sin, quilt and sacrifice real. It has done a very good job on many. Even those who do not belong to the bible belt like my self found it hard to miss these pain, sin, quilt and sacrifice oriented concepts because so many books, films and music have borrowed these painful concepts from religious stories just like the religious stories are actually borrowed from older prophecies. The seed of manipulating the mind to believe in the dream trough concepts of sin, quilt and fear was placed long time ago even before our modern day religions. The Sumerian tablets and Egypt hieroglyphs are a statement of that.
3. Dark night of the soul: At this point you have lost so much and your body is still trying to catch on to all these radical changes. Many from your old life are gone and all that is left is the possibility of there being a God who might help you out. Many are not able to work in a job or will radically reduce their working to have more space for this cocoon process. Here is an earlier post about the dark night. At this point it will be hard to relate with anybody who have not gone trough this themselves thus you isolate yourself and become a hermit to digest your experiences alone. The best healing you can find in this phase is to surrender, walk in nature and do gentle exercises. Be glad if you are still diagnosed with mental illness because the few people in your life at this point will be more prone to leave you alone and rest. You are dwelling in a place of the unknown with no reference points which your old life including the initiation and letting go phase of awakening was showing you as you were progressing trough these phases. At first you found meaning in the process of initiation and letting go but once you have let go enough of your old life even letting go loses its meaning and now suddenly there is no meaning in anything. There was no meaning in your old life/ initiation and even this spiritual letting go thing has lost its meaning! Yes, there really is no meaning in life and this is EXACTLY what humanity fears because the world is like a carrot in a stick trick for us to try and find meaning outside of God when there is none. This world was literally born from the wish to find meaning outside heaven trough dream symbols but it was all a dream. We have been all tricked trough lies. In the dark night of the soul you are trained to become content with the lack of meaning in life that there literally is nothing out there in the world that can make you happy – even spirituality. That happiness is within. The reason why many describe dark night of the soul as “the absence of God” is because we feel deeply the meaninglesness of everything and our systems get shocked. Some commit suicide at this point. Saying that the world is meaningless may sound depressing and harsh to the ones still entrenched in the 3D world but once you have gone trough this and come out of the dark night the paradox about this is that life becomes fantastic and more dreamy than ever! Again, happiness is within not without. The point of the dark night is to accept or love the meaninglesness of everything because this is what God is able to do and since we are not separated from God but the thought (“image”) of God we must think accordingly like It to be able to experience It. I know using the word “God” will intimidate some of you because for so long it has being used for manipulation and reinforcing sin, quilt and fear. All are false concepts because we are living in a dream.
Re – entering society after divine transformation.
I have had an awesome time lately. A lot of wild things have happened and I recently went to Santana concert having a nice view of him without paying a ticket. Thanks to forgiveness, my confidence has skyrocketed and the bliss of being a nobody and everything at the same time and not needing anything or anybody is like tripping on acid without taking acid. You have to come back from the high and integrate it once in a while so that you can function in the world and your body while you still appear to be here… And unlike the dark night of the soul phase, at this point, you do want to be here on earth as homo sanctus!
Many seem to sense my energy and people want to talk to me and meeting people is more simple when you need nothing outside of you. When I look in the mirror I can see my self smiling more frequently and my forehead is more serene. I have bunch of awakened friends and also the ones still asleep or in between but I just go trough the motions of life without any investment on any outcome enjoying all levels of human interactions. I do not care if people like me or not. I know that there is one of us appearing as many. One dreamer that is dreaming a life of multiplicity so im not really aware of “others” as much as before.
When you come out of the dark the dream nature of this world becomes more apparent. The ancient dream/matrix will start to fall apart and glitch once in a while and it will intensify as you progress. This is because you are becoming aware that planet earth, the universe is not linear it is multidimensional or holographic. You can skip dimensions of time if is beneficial for you and see alternative realities. A good example I can come up with is that if you walked to work trough a certain street and you usually saw the same buildings, same people, same cars parked in the same place, this time you will see slight differences. Instead of seeing the same old drunk sitting next to the store and cussing you might see a bunch of beautiful girls, instead of seeing the same buildings perhaps you will see a hotel that was not supposed to be there before. The changes in your world will not be too radical so you will not panic. As you raise you frequency your old relationships will also not manifest to your reality as often as usual and some of them will completely disappear.
You will start to notice synhcro events such as seeing repeating numbers on the clock and boards such as 1111 and other numbers that are meaningful to you. It is a personal message to you and only you know what it will mean. In my case it was about engaging with my new career activities and have fun because at that time I was half jokingly experimenting with a career move I could do with my new awareness but was not sure, until I started to see these repeating numbers like crazy thus I took inspired action. Challenges still come but there is more clarity to navigate trough them. Every encounter in life is about growing. Nothing is random and never was. Some of your old passions may re-surface as well. In my case they are more fun oriented not career seeking.
Psychic emergence .
Since you are less rigid in your mind and have evaporated a great chunk of garbage thoughts that distracted you from the present moment, you are gaining your forgotten abilities as an empath/psychic and are able to see the state of others, majority who are stuck in their mind chatter and are divided to the past, present and future. They are still in ego consciousness, in a lower vibration fully engrossed in the holographic dream so be ready for not everybody embracing your freedom. This is the law of attraction or vibration at play now. If you stick around low vibrating people happy and free it will make them aware of their state of misery and their investment to stay miserable which is why they will prefer not to be around you and will choose people vibrating at the same level as them. Low vibrating people will not be able to stick around your world too much unless you climb back down to their vibrational level and pretend to be not free which is not beneficial to you. When you are vibrating high, yes, your body appears to be existing to others (not all), but not only they will be intimidated by your freedom due to becoming aware of their own unhappiness, they will also sense deep within, although unaware, that you can read them like an open book because you are outside of the dream in tune with the one dreamer that is dreaming everybody.
The people who will be in your life are there to learn something from your presence but you will not have attachments to the result of their learning nor are you meant to talk about anything esoteric unless they ask. You will also need discernment in these relationships with lower vibrating friends because they may get depended on your high energy and try leech onto you though not knowing they are doing that. This is why its also beneficial to not have any random sexual encounters with low vibrating beings to avoid etheric attachments which can bind you to that person. The reason relationships with low vibrating people will require discernment is because they are attracted to ego consciousness and the only way the ego sustains it self is trough drama so if you hang around low vibrating people for a long time you will notice that they tend to attract weird situations and weird people in to their lives without them knowing they are doing so just like a young woman tend to date with a jerk hoping it will work out. Another thing you will notice unconscious people doing to one another are things such as subtle sarcastic humor, subtle competition and so on. Basically, mentally cannibalizing one another. Since they are not sensitive or psychic enough to see what they are doing with their lives, they think all this is normal when it is the exact opposite. I actually have buddies who are not aware that one of their older friend who seems nice is actually very aggressive and can explode at any time. Again, awakening can be disturbing at times but you will get used to it. I will also add one more time that Awakening does not make you better or worse. It is a natural process of evolution. As you know at this point, many people who are not going trough the process of waking up, who are fully engrossed in the holographic dream state are actually more prone to be able to function in regular jobs and careers because they have suppressed their feelings and are numb. We still need them so that our global system can be held together. The ones waking up will find the demands of the world tough and it is very rare if not impossible to be a CEO, a football player, a ufc fighter and to be Enlightened. These kind of activities absorb your energy to the matrix so allow unconscious people do their thing. If everyone would wake up at the same time, nobody would be able to work in the system because remembering your self being a Child of God outside time and space is a shock to the bodies system and demands time to integrate this knowledge/ universal energy on a biological level as well before you truly experience the body is actually an avatar within a projected holographic simulation or as some, including my self, refer as a holographic dream. The excelerated experience of not being a body is very orgasmic and the bodies internal system needs to learn how to handle these intense sexual energies. The process can take years to master and as you advance the need for physical sex tends to diminish.
A lot of people will come and go in this phase of your life so be ready for nothing to last forever and time to speed up in your experience. The point of letting go and the dark night/ cocoon was a gift for you to learn to enjoy to be alone because all relationships come with an expiration date and unlike most people who try to immortalize their relationships, the ones awakened are about letting go. This goes to your like minded esoteric friends as well, be ready to reach a moment of releasing them in joy as well because we are all here for different expressions of the same mission which is to spread light and glory trough out the universe by just being us. Not everybody is supposed to blog or make youtube videos with million hits. Some share their light in total obscurity and their life is still THE shit man… Magical and weird. Not all awakened people are meant to be together which is why forgiveness needs to be applied to awakened individuals as well. Once the purpose of the relationship has been served with a person, you release them in joy.
A lot of weird things continue to unfold, some have already experienced extraeterrestial encounters and prophecies at this point since they have become so sensitive to the universe and are ready to be contacted. The dream will still try to lure you back and some things you will see can be quite random at times. People will love you for no reason and people will hate you for no reason but neither one will have much effect on you anymore because you have learned to be content by being alone in silence with absolutely no meaning whatsoever in life.
I want to post a quote of mine that I want to be remembered from before someone else steals this quote from me. In order to understand this quote you have to play with the idea that our planet, in fact the entire cosmos and all entities are in fact subjective and not objective. The rising of quantum mechanics is simply a statement that perhaps everything is subjective after all. That everything is happening within a mind. The reason scientist still debate about subjective reality is because the majority of them have not had an out of body experience or any mystical life altering experience to realize that the universe is happening within them. That their consciousness is not a brain function. They also will have a hard time to let go of their identities which was only a dream figure thus their importance and pride as a scientist would evaporate. When Jesus said “The Kingdom of the Father is spread out upon the earth, and men do not see it” he meant that the universe, hell and heaven are happening within you, not outside of you. That heaven is a mental state of bliss you can experience while here on earth regardless of what happens in life. If your mind is rigid and you insist that earth is all it is, then it will be so in your experience. If you empower your self by realizing you are the dreamer of everything in your life and that imagination is infinite, then you will be guided towards a life path where that state of being gets more reinforced. Life will become magical and strange. It will literally be like living in a dream movie which our life really is.
Here is the quote I want to be remembered from.
That is it. Perhaps long but sums up important issues.
I also want to take time to send my appreciation to Jari Tenhunen. A simple Finnish man who was part of my life for 11 years before they split with my mom years ago. Jari made his transition recently and I wish him and his family all the best.
The dark night of the soul is a phase in the beginning stages of Awakening where you are not ready to move forward and you try to cling in to your old life and old relationships. It is a grieving process of a life that is now lost and you dont know what to do next. It usually feels depressing because we feel stuck and unproductive in this stage. We are basically a moving corpse and this is why It is very common to not have any passion for anything and due to the depression that follows from the lack of passion, we tend to be very fatigued and sleep a lot just to have some sense of peace. All in all it feels like God has left us because there is no inspiration for life (again, thus we sleep a lot). It is very good to know that this phase will pass and the whole purpose of this process is to make your biological self aligned with source/god/universe so remember to rest a lot, your brain is literally rewired to receive more energy and de-clutter your mind from past concrete linear thinking. Without feeling dead you would be placing goals based on your old way to thinking, your ego.
You are officially becoming multidimensional and after this, small manifestations like syncro events will be more obvious to you. You are on an important phase of realizing you are the dreamer of the dream (physical universe and people) so allow your physical biological self to catch on to this realization by resting as much as you can. Try to enjoy the fact that you are in a sped up process of self realization or Awakening from the dream of birth and death. Once you are in a dark night of the soul it is fair to say that there is no turning back anymore. You have basically raised your consciousness to a degree that it will be very hard to go back into your old habits, old friends and some family members. You cant go back because you are ascending now and this time you can feel it. It is not an intellectual spiritual mumbo jambo but real. Dark night of the soul is very painful process but once you get out of it, you will have intense confidence in you to a point some people, especially children, animals will sense it and will be attracted to your aura. You may also find weird encounters with people in general. Some may look at you with ave and be curious to know about you while others will get a hell away from you and be angry at you for no reason. Some people may even fall in love with you. Some times the same sex as you! Nocturnal dreams will get more intense. Its also good to to mention that some old relationships with family and old friends will come back but you will be more discerning with them this time. You will be discerning because by this time you have already met few like minded people you deeply connect with for you to see what connection really is and if your family and old friends are not willing to grow, you will be more discerning which means you may not spend too much time with them anymore. Another important thing to add is that you will get your energy back and start to get hints of what you should be doing with your life. You will discover spiritual gifts (healing, counselling, guidance) at this point and you will eventually find the right platform to express this. The benefits are incredible. Hang in there because things will get beautiful.
I want to quote something from Patrick John Colemans blog. A Shaman from Chicago who helped me few times in my toughest days.
What most don’t realize is that the dark night is a gift and you leapfrog over years of spiritual development in a mere matter of weeks or months. Some can stay locked in a Dark Night for years and the quickest way out of it is to just yield and give up. That’s right just let it happen. Let yourself feel terrible because chances are you’ve covered up those feelings in the past. Perhaps you’ve drowned your terrible feelings in distractions such as TV or engaged in addictions to make you feel artificially better. What’s happening in the Dark Night is that things are being set back into balance. You’re being reset and emotionally cleared for the next phase of your life as a spiritually awakened person. Where the shattered aspects of your soul have been collected and healed and you are now free to move through life unhindered by negative thought patterns or limiting behaviors. For that is the ultimate blessing of the DNOTS…your freedom.
I actually said some key points already but if you still need to listen to the recording, go ahead. In the recording I reveal some of my own experiences with the dark night and how long it lasted.
Let me say first that there are proofed medical benefits for smoking marijuana for those who are in physical and mental pain. For example, many people who have an never ending mind chatter or brain chatter will find benefits and revelations when smoking pot. This is because it gives you a hint of an none chattering mind and the benefits the none chatter of the mind has on the body. It will give them some clues of the state of meditation. However pot does not teach you how to get to this state of meditation without the help of pot so many get depended on pot. This recording is addressed to daily psychedelic users such as pot heads but who are already on the path of ascending from this physical dream. Now all that said, Ascension or awakening from the physical experience of birth and death is a process of reaching higher dimensions or higher states of consciousness. It is a process of becoming naturally blissful while you still appear to be in a body in a world. So if you use drugs such as marijuana on daily basis it may lead to a point where you realize it keeps you stuck in lower frequencies. It may have given you a temporary expansion of consciousness giving you clues that there is more to life but now it seems to drag you down… I know, I did not like this too. It can be quite shocking to realize that even the hippie and new age community in the 60s and 70s was part of the great deception and in fact promoted the culture of daily use of drugs to young people to keep them to stay dependent on drugs like marijuana rather than realizing the benefits of meditation and the simple desire to awaken. 🙂
Maybe smoking once in a rare while is not bad. I may try it one day.
All that said. Here is the recording below. There is no shortcuts to awakening such as using marijuana which is a 4th dimensional plant. The ego must be reluinquished to reach higher states of consciousness.
If you are lazy to read you can listen to the article.
Awakening from the dream of physical world and body, or in other words, awakening from the dream of a life of being born as a body, to eventually work hard to survive and to eventually die as a body is a growing phenomenon happening all around our world now. People have been introduced to this new way of being either true tragic such as a mental breakdown, loosing a job, loosing a loved one, loosing health and so forth, that makes the individual question the meaning of existence in a more authentic and inquired way rather than just intellectualizing it to sound more wiser to others. Many people have been reporting similar stories of collapsing and having an out of body experience where their consciousness gets seemingly removed from the body and they see themselves in a tunnel like place and a light at the very end of the tunnel which reminds the seeming individual that there is more to life than what our perception (5 senses) shows us and that consciousness is not limited to our brain. Some people have a more gentle introduction to this new way of being by simply reading about quantum mechanics or a metaphysical book like the Power Of Now by Echart Tolle or just stumbling across a blog post such as this which makes the reader more obsessed with seeking more information to confirm that this is what is going on and is a topic that should be paid attention to. There are also a number of people who have been into conspiracy theories, and although the basics are true which is that we are all slaves within a system governed by few insane satan/ego consciousness worshipping individuals who invented religion, health care, hollywood and our economic system to exploit souls, these people who are into conspiracy theories have naturally given up on this subject because they have finally understood that all it does is stimulate negativity, paranoia and fear into their minds which keeps us stuck in linear time, so they end up giving it up and lean towards a more positive direction which eventually leads them to metaphysical and mystical direction, the way out of this world or the process of healing the mind that is projecting a dream of a world and body. The dream of separation.
However, being awakened in the beginning stages, although exciting and should be so, does not make you special. It is a natural process of evolution. In fact, from the worlds point of view you may be considered valueless to the world because most of the times the people who end up going trough the beginning stages of awakening from the dream of birth and death in a western set up especially will find it very hard to function in a world that was designed almost perfectly to keep the sleepers asleep. Having all the universal energy running trough your open egoless mind can make you very tired at times. For example in Buddhist tradition it is normal to find refuge after awakening because the noise and demands of the world becomes overwhelming. The world we see outside of us is basically a result of dreaming so all it does is that it will always promote complicated systems, people in power, people in medicine, in media, in news, in science, in music and film industry, all that are coming from a place of unconsciousness, in other words, they are coming from a place of making the world and body real to us and something we must take seriously not realizing and admitting that there is nothing to take serious about this world because we are literally dreaming our lives and have the power to change the content of our dreaming at any time. To be co- creators of life.
When you start awakening and you see beyond the falsity of this world or matrix which results you being stuck in two opposite worlds, one at the earthly plane and the other one being sometimes blissfully high in a different dimension only to come back to the earthly plane and depressed of not being ready to reach home yet, you will most likely find it hard to function in the physical world, in relationships and in all areas of your life for a while. A typical result is to end up isolating your self from the world around you and find solace in aloness because not only are you realizing that our so called leaders, news reports, scientist, religion, medicine and famous artist are coming from a place of unconsciousness, you will also realize that your previous decisions before your awakening with relationships, hobbies and ambition was also coming from a place of unconsciousness, to serve your ego desires! You will realize that all your decisions regarding friends, relatives, hopes and dreams, prior to your process to awaken from the dream of birth and death, have been made by you to distract you from reaching Enlightenment, the way out of this dream. I think this is why many are avoiding Enlightenment because you are basically seeing the truth of who you really are by contrasting it with who you are not. You are seeing that pretty much all of your relationships, hobbies and ambitions, the good and the bad were conditioned by you to remain in a literal sleep and throw your power away. This is why so many people who are awakening have reported the same old story which happened to me as well which is that pretty much all relationships with friends, family, hopes and dreams ends up falling apart once the individual sees beyond the veil (starts to awaken from the dream of birth and death). These individuals and activities served you to keep your ego identity intact which was your secret wish and forgotten reason you started dreaming of a world and a body in the first place but if you really are for the job to leave the dream, it also means that you must reach a point of letting go of your false self and everything that perpetuated that false identity. The process of letting go of your old or false self is basically done by what I call mini deaths so if you have a relationship that was chosen from a place of unconsciousness such as the fear of being alone or a need for validation and love, for survival etc. this relationship will be removed to learn more self love and trust your self. If you have a crappy 9 to 5 job which only motivation was to make money to survive, the job will sooner or later fall apart for you to learn to trust the universe in difficult times and to see if you are able to be kind to yourself and to others while going trough these difficulties. Since you are the dreamer of physical universe (the dream of birth and death), at some point as you advance in your awakening, you will realize that it is not God that is placing you to go trough these situations, it is you who is doing the whole thing for the sake of your and mankinds evolution. If you have strong resistance to these radical changes that will take place once you answer the call to awaken from this insane dream of birth and death I can assure you life will do the work for you because you can not be around certain individuals or circumstances anymore anyway. Many of your old friends and family members and people in general will hate you and will try to pull you back to their beliefs that serves to keep remaining in the dream or matrix. They will unconsciously, or the fear of losing you, try to pull you back to ego consciousness, to distract you back to body identification rather than being a lucid dreamer. Inside they know that you are indeed dying but in a good way, that you are graduating from the earth plane and going to a completely new vibration or dimensions of existence and since they are too addicted to ego consciousness, the body, the drama, the fear, the mind chatter and the pain, they are not ready to let go.
People who are still asleep are in other words addicted to ego consciousness that gives them the illusion of being a brain body complex. It has been going on for so long that letting it go is hard and if you have been into drugs like I have the typical step of letting go of your addiction to drugs or alcohol is to let go of the people who are into the habit! This is basically why the common symptom of awakening/letting go of ego consciousness involves releasing the people who are not ready to do the same. Not sharing the same addiction for drama there is basically nothing to share anymore, no reason to be around, nothing to talk about and when you let go of ego consciousness this is exactly what happens with your old friends, work environment and even family. It will all fade away. If you resist this natural process and stay with them you will see it can get very awkward, hopeless and difficult to have a conversation with people absorbed by ego consciousness because they will unconsciously talk about their lives or events in the world that has nothing to do with what is true. Even if you do not talk things will be painfully awkward because in reality we are minds and we communicate to one another telepathically so in some level your old relationships will sense that you have changed… Most of them seeing it as a bad thing. For example in my case, when I went trough the dark night of the soul which is a word for a rapid expansion of awakening and I was more introverted than ever, one of my old friend while high and drunk asked me disapointed “what happened to that alpha male Klem I used to know?”
So do not panic when relationships starts to fade away and people will distance themselves from you or you will distance your self from them. You are growing out of your peer group, this is normal, this is evolution! If you try to save the relationship by pulling your friends or relatives to your frequency by sharing about your esoteric experiences the typical reaction is blank stares thinking you are crazy. In my case some have gotten aggressive because they have a hard time to accept that their problems and pains in life are all self created to basically sabotage their chances to be truly free. Religious people will have a hard time to accept that the god they pray to is actually the ego god invented by insane but ingenious individuals and extraterrestials who are here to control mankind. In many cases, many people awakening who told their relatives about their esoteric discoveries has led them to mental hospital only to be misdiagnosed with mental illness by greedy doctors. This happened to me guys so keep this hidden knowledge to your self. Many are not mentally prepared for this stuff anyway so let them be and wallow in their misery until they have also had enough of their mental and physical pains. Namaste.
Awakening from the dream of life (and death) is a process that will take time. It can take lifetimes (I hated this idea) because we are so rooted into the dream. It will most likely not be an easy process because our global system was made in a way so that nobody is able to awaken from our dreams of life and death.
For thousands of years The illuminati/ Cabal have been plotting with advanced beings/ extraterrestials by building a reincarnation harvesting grid, which lures our souls to come back to this world over and over again after we die, only to repeat the same nine to five slavery again and again with total amnesia regarding who we really are, and to be fed with false history about our self by a world outside of us. They have sodomised and exploited our souls for a long time. You cant beat the prison system (our world) trough physical means because it is foolproof but you can escape it trough realizing that you are the dreamer and have the power to change the dream into a dream that hastens your awakening away from the dream and stop reincarnation. This is what the illuminati fears the most which is why they created the concept of Darwinism that completely denies the power of our minds and rendering us to believe in a physical brain. The brain is projected by the mind! Not other way around! Evolution never occurred because it was all just a bad dream of separation which is meant to keep us in a literal sleep in time space. The world and the events/story you perceive are inevitable effects of separating from god which means, again, that its bound to be chaotic. Our bodies, that stand for individuality, are symbols of separation. The death of the body is a symbol of separation. The death of a star is a symbol of separation. Even things like peeing is a symbol separation because the water in your body is separating it self from your body! So everything here stands for separation.
Many people like your family and friends are most likely hypnotized by the world which means if you start to awaken you will most probably create tension around them because you are challenging their sense of reality by your very being. There will be times when people who are unaware of the dream nature of the world will uncounsiously attack and try to lure you back into concensus thinking, back to what is familiar and safe for them to understand, so you will have to say no many times because you now know that the only way to save this world is to truly awaken from the dream, by slowly realizing that we are not bodies and thus be a demonstrator of true inner peace to others because you know our lives as bodies are made up so there is nothing to fear. This is the ideal state for all of us and we can get there!
Today I want to list some comforting realizations.
1. Although the world was build to attack those who awaken from the dream you will be able to take those attacks less seriously. You will be able to take EVERYTHING less seriously because you are slowly understanding it is all just an imagination/dream. Awakening does not guarantee a successful life in terms of the world, the part of you that still wants to experience individuality/ separation as a body will not like this idea of Awakening which is why our desire for separation will manifest all these challenges in our lives to keep us distracted from our mind and keep us asleep until the desire to be separated is gone. When the desire to be separated is gone then it is time for fun. The dream can get more intense, beautiful and weird the more you awake. If you look at Jesus life, who was awakened completely, his life ultimately led to his crucifixion, so Awakening does not guarantee you millions of dollars or any of that Law Of Attraction stuff. The true miracle of your life is to experience that you are the dreamer of the physical universe. That is Enlightenment. All else will fall into place naturally. It is a gradual process otherwise our biological small self could not take it. The process of awakening is also a very physical process where our brain gets rewired to receive larger dose of universal energy trough our spines which is why it is very common to rest a lot at this time.
2. Realizing you are the dreamer means that every animal you see are also you. You will have more abilities to communicate with them and animals will appear more human to you. You may lose the desire to eat meat. Eating meat is just a Rothchild bullshit idea anyway.
3. You will live a life of contentment and gratitude no matter how tough things get.
4. Although your career, your hobbies, people and even family members may fall away, and you will be in a limbo all alone, you will eventually attract the right people into your life who are on the same journey with you because like attracts like. There is no more ego based agenda (fear of being alone, seeking validation, likes, gossip etc) in the relationships but true, honest and unconditional communication. In other words, slowly realizing life is just a dream leads you into a more feiry tail experience of life. Everything is more synhcronistic and different opportunities start to come up. The dream basically gets weird, beautiful and sometimes very intense especially in night time sleep.
5. Even when the dream can get very intense to a point it overwhelms you, you just know there is a higher purpose behind everything that happens in your life. Your everyday life has meaning.
6. Your body becomes more lighter and easier to carry around. It doesn’t feel like a heavy meat sack anymore.
7. You will eventually stop judging other people and your self because there is no sense in judging something which is only a dream. Judgement is basically a decision to make sin real in your mind and you will eventually learn not to do that for the sake of your own well being and others.
Hope you liked the list. These are based on my own understanding and not all are meant to resonate with you. I do feel however that you will find some common elements with your own awakening and most importantly, realize that you are not alone in this intense, beautiful and weird journey.
Your own self realization is the greatest service you can offer the world.” -Sri Ramana Maharshi
Now I want to keep it simple and list out some what might be disturbing realizations of what we thought to be our lives here on earth. These are not meant to scare anybody. This will be discovered by everyone when they are ready anyway. Hopefully this resonates with you.
1. You slowly realize that God did not create the world because the world and the people are literally happening in your mind. You are the dreamer (creator) of the world and the people. The dream is the way it is because it is a dream of separation from god (a.k.a oneness) so its bound to be chaotic. It is a miscreation of thought which resulted into a very real experience which we now believe as reality and have completely forgotten its all made up. Our five senses (sight, hearing, smelling etc) are all made up in a dreaming mind.
2. Since you are the dreamer of the world and its people, all the people in your life are literally YOU! You do not really have parents that gave you life nor are the children you seemed to give birth to really your children. They are literally all fragmented parts of you because its all in your mind. Just like during night time bed when you sleep and dream a dream of places and people:all the people and places are you because they are within you. Realizing your children or parents are dream figures can be heartbreaking at first but this does not mean that your love for them will change or diminish. You will actually view them as powerful as you are and enjoy the time with them even more!
3. The dream world we seem to live in has been hijacked by selfish Satan worshipping beings the pop culture know now as illuminati. They created a man made system (religion, vatican, government, television, banking system, bureauocracy, hollywood etc) to keep us unaware of the fact that we are not really in the world at all but are minds dreaming as if we are in the world or matrix. In other words our entire system was created to keep us mindless/To not be aware we are the dreamer. Their main weapon to keep us believing in the reality of the body is trough fear by using false flag events such as 9/11. They have used religion to inject the concept of sin and guilt into our minds which only perpetuates the false state of being a body. They have basically lied to us about everything by using ancient sorcery they learned from other humanoid races thousand of years ago and still continue to work together to maintain people in an eternal state of sleep and never get out.
4. You will eventually have to forgive these satan worshipping beings (illuminati) because they are fragmented parts of you. In other words if you would be in their shoes fully engrossed in their experience of being a separated individual and have access to such power, you would have done the same decision to enslave humanity. No big deal. Forgive and let them go. They have already lost the battle because so many are fed up with the way the world is running right now and it is this organic way of being fed up with everything that catapults you into the path of Awakening from the dream of separation which is the life we all live in as one. There is only one of us appearing as many, and that one is you. You are the dreamer and there is nobody else.
5. The body is actually a deformity of thought. In other words the body is an after effect of a mind that is sick. Any sickness in the body is ultimately demonstrating a sickness that is in the mind which needs to be healed in an mental level trough self-work. The last sickness to overcome is the death of the body.
7. Friends and family members who are heavily invested into the dream or matrix will naturally fall away from your life. You will not be able to save them because the decision to awaken must be chosen by themselves. The beginning stages of Awakening is a lonely and gradual process where you slowly realize you are not here at all and to realize you do not exist can be horrifying. Realizing you do not exists takes an enormous courage and willingness so you can not force your loved ones to follow your path. You can also call awakening a conscious way of dying of the old life to the new and who wants to die really?
8. Although there are many moments of bliss and communication with god (oneness) during your awakening process you will also be intensily sensitive and aware of the state of our world which is dwelling in insanity and pain on many levels including universally. You will most likely be angry to the people around you of why they are not seeing they way you see things.
9. Hell and heaven are real only in the sleeping mind that dreams. The more you awaken the more you have to face your fears which may include embracing demonic or alien entities (usually during night time sleep). Being dedicated to truth means to embrace the bad things as well not only the comfortable ones which only our egos would attach to. Facing your fears includes more subtle experiences as well such as facing being broke, being homeless, losing a loved one, being alone etc. The purpose is to overcome these obstacles by trust and be willing to see that they are all part of the dream to keep you in fear which perpetuates the state of sleep. There is nothing to fear but that can be only experienced when you truly know you are the dreamer and not a dream figure (a body)
10. Awakening process is about getting used to letting go of the false self which is the life we think we live. It is about getting more in tune with your inner self (the dreamer) and ultimately have the courage to leave the dream entirely, not trough death but trough Enlightenment/ purification of mind that dreams a nightmare of life and death.
Stay tuned for the next article. I will try to write something nice this time. In the mean while, hear this. A song about reality!
If you read my articles you have probably noticed that I refer our physical universe, the entire cosmos as only a dream. It is not a new idea in fact Hinduism, the oldest religion of our world, has also addressed the world to be not real, it is only a projection of our minds. There are many teachings of Jesus found in the Gospel of Thomas that are pointing to this exact same experience, not to mention buddhism that also supports this. So what I have said so far is nothing new and thank god more and more people are awakening in to this! Some people do this in obscurity so that they wont be called crazy or killed and some are more vocal about this subject… Who might get killed eventually. Lol.
However, telling a person that the world is just a dream is not really a good motivator to really dive deeper to realize how much we have invested our hopes and dreams of finding happiness here on earth which is really a dream of a world. A life which is not real. So what happens to those very few who are ready to listen and embark on a journey of truth or Self discovery is that they will go trough a lot of hardships in life so that they can organically dis-invest and ultimately release their hopes and dreams of ever finding happiness in this world. That their happiness can only be found in god. It will be a process of letting go from a lot of things so that ultimately all that is left is you and god. At first loss is perceived as bad and we will regret of ever answering the call but the more you lose the more you have to be with yourself, in your mind, and become conscious that you are in fact a mind dreaming being a body in a physical universe. A convincing dream of separation from god. A nightmare state. Once you realize you are the dreamer you are however free!
Deeper in to the rabbit hole.
Not remembering about our true origin as spirit, most of us have gotten comfortable with our seeming reality which is only a projection of a world. Some have a secure life like a secure job, house and friends and family and are never motivated to deeply question what we collectively pass as life here on earth which clearly has good in it but also a lot of pain and suffering.
Although it is clear that there is suffering in the world, when someone over learns the world and sets him self with specific skills he or she has developed and struggled for for many years, it becomes very difficult to let go of attachment to the thinking mind which has carried out the mortal thoughts of survival in this world for so long. Mortal fear to survive in this world separated from gods love has become an addictive state now. The addiction to mortality is so addictive that we have over cluttered our minds with thoughts of mortality and concreted our selves in to a projected image of the thought of mortality (separation) which is the body and the universe that goes with it, perpetuating mortality even further to a point mortality is all we know about now. We have basically made it more harder for ourselves to realize life is but a dream, that we are eternal beings or spirits that have mistakenly invested our entire belief into a world and a body. Everybody is in amnesia due to the convincing nature of our universe and has bought in to the dream by trying to measure and analyze it and making it real. The universe pretends to be mysterious so that we seek answers outside of ourselves and never realize we are the universe. There are however those who end up “suffering” a lot because they did not learn the world really well so they never got comfortable here. They end up living like a wreckloose, a renegade of some sort, never being able to set foot into this world and ground themselves. As much as they try to understand the world; relationships and the world it self are simply too complicated to be understood “so why even try” they say usually preferring entertainments, drugs, creativity and so on to escape their pain with their discontent with this world.
Are you one of these people? Congratulations! As crazy as it may sound, it is these people who are on the grandest journey of all, which is to awaken from this universe we know as life. They are following the path of enlightenment without even knowing it… until things in your life starts to get worse…. And worse and worse!
Nothing seems to be working in your life, you dont resonate with your old friends and biological family anymore, you get kicked out from your job, your career, even your own house. You are always tired and have lost passion in life. You feel weary of everything and your night time dreams are demonic sometimes.
Welcome to the initiation of your awakening.
Awakening is not only about bliss and light, it is also about tearing the aspects of yourself that have rooted you deeper into the matrix or dream. In other words, the reason many things will go away is because they were blocking our awareness of gods love. We can not be aware of God if we think we are in control of life as an individual self so what happens is that everything, absolutely everything that reinforced your state as an individual autonomous self will go away. The process of letting go will not be easy because our entire culture has been made to reinforce the dream of separation/ individuality and has been taken over by a small group of people who have been using our system for millenia to root us deeper into the dream and never wake up for their own pleasure. They basically feed us with bodily beliefs to a point we get addicted to this state and fear our abstract nature as formless spirit. They even removed the concept of reincarnation from the bible and added the hell fire concept nonsense so that we stay in fear which only reinforces our state as a body. The more you realize the world really is a dream, the more your awareness as a body will evaporate. That is true freedom. That is to live in a world but not being of it.
Although the world is not a nice place due to its agenda to keep everyone asleep, awakening is very possible, in fact it is inevitable for everyone. Illuminati or whatever you want to call it can not win. If we cant hear the calling to awaken the other route of awakening is to go trough the process I just mentioned earlier which is to go trough a lot of pain and suffering to a point you have to let all of it go. In many cases it has to be a gentle process because so many are caught up into the dream to a point if everything gets taken away just like that, they can go crazy and not trust the process of awakening at all. This is not gods will.
So if everything in your life is breaking down. You really are on the right track.It will not last forever and new people, places and goals will emerge to serve your new state of being as a conscious or awakened being in a human form. The dream will continue to try to convince you you are a body trough series of problems, sometimes intense problems that overwhelms you, but you now have the ability to take things less seriously because you now know it was all just a silly game/ dream. You now know what everything in your life is for. What a wonderful gift right? The body will grow old… The body will seem to die, but you will live a consious life of growing awareness of being a spirit – that has the ability to create like god – in a human form by letting go of of the mortal thoughts, the ego, the emotions that goes with it, and allow the universe to serve you with lessons that hastens your awakening process and the disappearance of the universe.